Unforgetable Love

At the age

2009-12-02T07:09:00.000-08:00

At the age of 1 i took my first few steps
At the age of 2 i recognised my parents
At the age of 3 i learned to speak
At the age of 4 i learned to play the organ
At the age of 5 i attended kindergarden
At the age of 6 i learned to swim and ride the bicycle
At the age of 7 i learned to read
At the age of 8 i attended art class
At the age of 9 i was chosen to be a prefect
At the age of 10 i started to love singing
At the age of 11 i wanted to be a star
At the age of 12 i grew indenpendent
At the age of 13 i had my first kiss
At the age of 14 i was transfered to singapore
At the age of 15 i started to dream BIG

Contact

2009-11-22T21:17:00.000-08:00

We connect with each other when we’re in the light – This means we communicate. People in the dark don’t communicate.

Fellowship happens because we know stuff about each other. We share, we talk, we connect.
I worry about people when they isolate themselves. This Kingdom is all about connection (fellowship) with each other.

The devil tries to dislocate, divide and shut down connection and get people in the dark.
If you’re a leader, communicate. People are down on what they’re not up on.

This is why church (the gathered people) is so important. Your church. Don’t let the devil isolate you!

1 John 1:7 - "But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another.."

A sincere poetry about my life

2009-08-03T21:27:00.000-07:00

I was young and foolish
my days were empty with sorrow
the light in my life began to vanish
i live in a time borrowed

I had no idea what was instored
everyday was like a prison
losing my friends i cannot afford
In this situation that has risen

For many years i have been dreaming
that one day i could soar with the eagles
i looked up in the sky with my heart thumping
Knowing in the inside i was troubled

Soon i lost all my securities
my family became strangers
my relationships grew futher
i was so lonely and living in a world of uncertainties

Then a hand reached out to me
saying "come back home"
Come back to Me
and He brought me to a place i long known

After all i had done to hurt Him
he still assured me 'He loves me'
and that moment i had a hint
That He came and rescued me

i was brought to a place i never imagined
Where this is the place my life totally changed
i was no longer the person i once knew before it begin
i now live for a purpose, i am in a place destined for me

My heart was filled with love
life had transformed for the better
i could never thank him enough
My Saviour Jesus Christ

True Greatness( from the bible)

2009-07-03T04:50:00.000-07:00

A person who humbles himself is the greatest in heaven.(Matthew 18:4)

NOTHING is more important than gaining eternal life. NOTHING is worth the cost of losing our souls in hell fire. (Matthew 18:8-9)

A man could not earn salvation by doing good. Salvation is based on God's goodness of ours.Nevertheless, we do not find eternal life unless we keep the commandments.(Matthew 19:17)

The regeneration: The new world will be ushered in with the second coming of jesus and the judgement. (Matthew 19:28)

If you want to be perfect, go sell what you have and give it ot the poor, and you shall have treasure in heaven.(Matthew 19:21)

With men is impossible, but with God all things are possible.(Matthew 19:26)

recieve a hundredfold: whatever we may experience for Jesus sake will be worth it all when we see him.( Matthew 19:29)

Whatver things you ask in prayer, believing, you will recieve.(Matthew 21:22)

A human will never expose his son to danger.But God went far. He sent his son as His supreme effort for our salvation.(Matthew 21:37)

All are called, invited to the salvation of the kingdom.But few respond in faith and are thereby chosen.( Matthew 22:14)

What sign will come before Jesus return at the end of age?

"For nation will rise again nation, and kingdom against kingdom. And there will be famines,pestilences,and earthquakes in various places. All these are just the begining of sorrows.
"Then they will deliver us up to tribulation and kill us.And we will be hated by all nations for Jesus's name sake. And then many will be offended, betraying one another,hating one another.Then many false prophets will rise up and decieve many. And because lawlessness will bound, the love of many will grow cold. But he who endures till the end will be saved.And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in all the world as a witness to all nations,and then the end will come.(Matthew 24:4)

Assuredly, heaven and earth may pass away, but my word will by no means pass away.(Matthew 24:35)

These are no joke!! There are so so much more interesting facts in the bible! =)

Nothing is impossible

2009-06-10T04:03:00.000-07:00

Im not gonna live by what i see, or what i feel.
Deep down i know that you're here with me and i know that u can do anything.
I can do all things cause its you who gives me strength,nothing is impossible.
Through you blind eyes are opened,
strongholds are broken.
i am living by faith! i believe in you.

The miracle

2009-05-29T04:28:00.000-07:00

There was a concert held at church las sunday. After the concert, i reached down into my bag to grab my wallet.To my horror, it was not inside. My wallet consists my Ez-link card, my allowance and my savings. Without wasting time, i quickly ran down to mcdonalds(where i had my lunch) to look for it, unfortunately one of the staff said there was none found. At that moment, i began to panick but somehow i remembered a bible verse saying "do not worry, for the Lord knows your needs". I tried to remain calm..Although on d outside i looked as if nothing had happened, but on the inside i was crying out for help..crying out to Jesus, saying " Please help me find my wallet.. prove to me that u really do exist". And back in church, i tried to forget about it and continue to entertain d new frenz and eventually did manage to enjoy myself the whole night(:

As i had no more allowance, no ez-link card, i depended on the coins i had saved for my transport and meals. for 2 days, i depended only on bread that is left at home for lunch and a cup of soya bean for breakfast.

On one night, there was a girl that added me on facebook. i totally have no idea who is she.. she's a complete stranger. But she left a message:

"Hey did you happen to lose your wallet on Sunday, 24th May? Cos I happened to find one.Reply ASAP thanks.(:"

I was just soo shocked. God really did hear my cry n he helped me to find my wallet!! Then we met up and she returned my wallet with not even a single cent missing! How amazing is that! If it would be any ordinary stranger, that person would just take all the money and throw the wallet away. But God sent this special person to return it to me. its super powerful. God really does exists!!

Red rain concert day ! =D

2009-05-23T09:23:00.000-07:00

today was super fun!! met new frenz like francis,kevan, kenny n randolph.. hahas they were super cool(: the concert today is a success! they enjoyed themselves very much n im sooo glad for tat =D hahas. but sadly i did not bring my camera so did not get to take pics with d band..sigh. hopefully tmr will have a chance (: oh tmr im bringing peizhi, nigel n danica for d concert.. i believe God is gna touch their hearts n i believe they would enjoy it juz like d new frenz today((: i also wna specially thank swee wei jie, hong hwee, jonathan tan n those who helped me to take care of them. THANK U SO MUCH!!

Life changing

2009-05-21T02:44:00.000-07:00

it has been a very very very very very very long time i did not blog =P
hahas there has been many new interesting things happened to me..
lets start on the 4 major things in my life:

1) relationship with God
i could still remember d sunday school classes ive been when i was a child... all the way till now, i see the change God made for me.. Although it seems when i was hopeless, useless, meaningless, rebellious n broken.. but God did not give up on me.. he still kept me back to his arms n save me from tat terrible situation i was going through.. it was a shocking thing; getting transferred to a new environment all of the sudden. when i was enrolled in a secondary school in singapore, i believed God had arranged everything for me.. i met new loving frenz n in one sunday i was standing in a church called Heart of God Church! it was amazing.. the ever 1st time i encountered God soo strongly. his touch was soo real n i was crying so hard by the presence. Ever since then, my faith increased so i planted my heart in the house of god ready to love n serve him more n more for d rest of my life.. (:

2)family
If u knew me earlier, u would know that i was nothing but a rude n rebellious daughter as i was influenced. I see d dissapointment of d hearts and they would always look down on me.. At that time, i did not feel like i have a family anymore, no difference of living with anyone else. I am a single child, so d most most important thing in my life would be friends. However, frenz are juz temporary.u would be shocked to see my past.. haha but thank God im not like that now! ;D the teachings n d love of God thaught me to HONOR YOUR PARENTS n love others! it is only the love of Jesus that could really make you love n forgive others. Now, i am not perfect yet, but i know that my heart has changed n it made me opened my eyes that the love of a mother is really great.

3) BGRs
it was sad i do admit that im single again-nahhhh jus joking!! haha ive learned that being in a relationship is really tiring, like ur under someone's control n usualy never have d freedom to do what u want. life is more worthy than that!! as ive experienced it n seen before, most relationships never last forever. In d end it'll be just an empty heart with regret and sorrow. But why do people dont open their eyes n reflect? thats becoz they need LOVE. as hearts are empty, life is meaningless, they urge to find for someone's attention to fill their heart n to gain LOVE. So when i encountered the love of a God, it was greater than u can ever expect. it is different. because it never dies or dissapoint you,knowing that someone tat loved you so much that even paid ur price by being crucified to death, always there when u needed him, always knows your needs, never lets you go so easily, protects you wherever you go, gives you what u desire, what more can you ask for? therefore i decided to give all of me to him in more of him.. im not saying that it is wrong to be in BGR, it is an exp to have, but beware n do not fall to temptation at a young age or even then until ur married.

4) friends
friends are one of d most important things in my life, we cry n laugh to tgt. However, i was a very shy n quiet gal.. so do not really get to relate very well. So I was desperate to have more close frenz, frenz that really love n care for me. i am like the dog in a group-folowing everywhere they go, doing wat i can do juz to be part of them. In church, d leaders thaught me how to reach out to friends n to really love them. i realized that was d right thing to do rahter than following them around. So i went up a whole new level, my heart was actually focusing on caring for them n do wat is possible to reach out to them n to help them. And it worked! i see people treating me much better than before..i no longer felt lonely. i really hope that u will go out n love others too.. u never know if there is a heart crying for help. whatever u sow, u shall reap.
thats all for today!

love,
michelle yan(:

why do people only notice our mistakes but not d improvement we have made..

2009-03-07T07:53:00.000-08:00

long time no blog le~lazy marhs.hehes.my 1st 2009 blog =] LOL

This year had been very bz n tiring..i juz dunno y. maybe time has become more and more faster.lol. then, almost everyday after sch i would usualy meet up wif my laogong n then go for dinner(: usually reach home arn 8+ and if late
(after 9) will kena $10 deduction-.-sian. recently i have been training basket ball very hard to improve more coz i really want d team to win and hopefully d coach wun look down on me.but it juz seems unfair. on friday after d chinese oral, i forgot to bring d history project thing n i needed to go home to pass it to my fren to complete it was d due date. i knew i wuld be late for my training. so unfortunately, i bumped into her n then told her tat i need to do my project 1st then later go 4 training. she gave me a big fat NO.-.-"i was really worried and i noe my fren wuld kill me ><" juz in time he called me n i xplained it to him. then unexpectdly he asked her permision to excuse me during training..OMG! i was like shivering.lol. she gave me a scary look and gave me half an hr to come back training. since las year i culd tel tat she's not really appreciating me in d team as she once said tat she wants me to quit bbal if i 4get to bring any stuff again-.- but one thing tat she doesnt know is d improvement i hav made this year..y culdn she see tat? or is she pretending not to know?

Last couple months ago there was another case with my parents. I had this very bad habit tat they had been nagging abt. i juz seemed to ignore it. soon my parents were fustratd with it but i didn mind them scolding me as i knew it was part of my fault. but all of d sudden my mum decided to terminate d internet telling me many kinds of reasons and nearly wanted to send me to boarding sch.. my heart juz sinked. actualy past few weeks i hve been trying my best to change it and myself. 1st time of my life, i tried my best to complete all my hw,studying n striving to be beter~LOL. but they juz dun see it. one little mistake she will nag n nag non-stop-.- it was a habit since i was little! its not tat i wanted to be like this! if only they could understand how i felt.this left me crying contiously for 2 nights. then when she was abt ot terminate it d nx day, i fought hard for it n argued with her, finaly telling her my feelings. in the end, she decided not to=] it was a relieve..

through it all.. i love u jesus!

2008-11-22T20:59:00.000-08:00

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You
I will sing to You, Lord
A hymn of love
For Your faithfulness to me
Im carried in everlasting arms
Youll never let me go
Through it all

i hate leaving!!!

2008-11-14T05:49:00.000-08:00

so erm i have another 24 hours to before i leave so called my 'new home'. hehe. i hate leaving espescially my friends.. really hate to say goodbye.. missing someone sucks man-.-
im sick of this feeling.. I HATE IT!! i wish my life wasnt like this.. sometimes when i look at how happy my frenz are with their families and a home, i feel so.. disadvantaged={ it was like 10 years ago since enjoyed spending time with my family..-.- you just dont know how it feels like moving place to place like u dont really have a home..it really sucks. Sometimes it could make me hate my family for doing this.. i lived with other families before, i just wonder where's the differences. honestly, i'd rather live with other people than moving all the time... i cant go on for the rest of my life like this..

last day of school

2008-10-23T07:00:00.000-07:00

So today was d last day of school, yepeee! i gotta reach school by 6.45am for d rehersal -.- but anyway every1 was late haha. so yup we did d performance.. it was latin percussion(playing of difrent kinds of instruments) then i went 4 d ptc wif my mum..bla bla bla half an hour gone by-.-
so after that i rushed 2 meet up with kheng siang. then ever1 met up at northpoint for bday celebration! =D so we all took bus 2 d khatib resovoir while gordan ride tingyan on a bike! how sweet! lol. we had a party there n ordered pizzas n stuff.. then later we played ice xD haha. so then it got late, d boys went 2 pack bags of water to throw it on desmond,d bday boy! it was 100 bags..lol. then fire in d hole!!! every1 started to bomb desmond n he got all wet haha! but some people saw us so we had to go -.- we went to d bustop n i got home..

exam over!!!

2008-10-10T01:56:00.000-07:00

YEAH! exam finally over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol. i could remember the pain and suffering ive gone through during studying ==! it was torturing! i almost gone mad >< hehe.
but anyway THANK GOD exams dont last forever ;D got my life back now and enjoying it^^
have fun guys!! end of year already^^ man so fast time is running @.@

2008-08-23T10:05:00.001-07:00

4 major things in my life

2008-05-09T22:06:00.000-07:00

There are 4 major things in my life,
GOD,BOYFRIEND,FRIENDS &FAMILY, :D
without them i cant survive,
they know the inside and out of me.

1.God
The only one who knows me best,
he never made me lost hope,
picked me up when i had fallen,
father, i love u the most.

2.boyfriend
I love the relationship we share,
made me feel loved and special,
we share our lives together,
because our love is forever.^^

3.friends
friends are like gold,
lightens my world of darkness,
they are the one i can hold on to,
true friends will never leave you..

4.family
sheltered me with love and care,
made me smile and made me cry,
eventhough i was a big dissapointment,
they still forgive and loved me for who i am.

love,
michelle <3