Thursday, May 21, 2009
it has been a very very very very very very long time i did not blog =P
hahas there has been many new interesting things happened to me..
lets start on the 4 major things in my life:
1) relationship with God
i could still remember d sunday school classes ive been when i was a child... all the way till now, i see the change God made for me.. Although it seems when i was hopeless, useless, meaningless, rebellious n broken.. but God did not give up on me.. he still kept me back to his arms n save me from tat terrible situation i was going through.. it was a shocking thing; getting transferred to a new environment all of the sudden. when i was enrolled in a secondary school in singapore, i believed God had arranged everything for me.. i met new loving frenz n in one sunday i was standing in a church called Heart of God Church! it was amazing.. the ever 1st time i encountered God soo strongly. his touch was soo real n i was crying so hard by the presence. Ever since then, my faith increased so i planted my heart in the house of god ready to love n serve him more n more for d rest of my life.. (:
2)family
If u knew me earlier, u would know that i was nothing but a rude n rebellious daughter as i was influenced. I see d dissapointment of d hearts and they would always look down on me.. At that time, i did not feel like i have a family anymore, no difference of living with anyone else. I am a single child, so d most most important thing in my life would be friends. However, frenz are juz temporary.u would be shocked to see my past.. haha but thank God im not like that now! ;D the teachings n d love of God thaught me to HONOR YOUR PARENTS n love others! it is only the love of Jesus that could really make you love n forgive others. Now, i am not perfect yet, but i know that my heart has changed n it made me opened my eyes that the love of a mother is really great.
3) BGRs
it was sad i do admit that im single again-nahhhh jus joking!! haha ive learned that being in a relationship is really tiring, like ur under someone's control n usualy never have d freedom to do what u want. life is more worthy than that!! as ive experienced it n seen before, most relationships never last forever. In d end it'll be just an empty heart with regret and sorrow. But why do people dont open their eyes n reflect? thats becoz they need LOVE. as hearts are empty, life is meaningless, they urge to find for someone's attention to fill their heart n to gain LOVE. So when i encountered the love of a God, it was greater than u can ever expect. it is different. because it never dies or dissapoint you,knowing that someone tat loved you so much that even paid ur price by being crucified to death, always there when u needed him, always knows your needs, never lets you go so easily, protects you wherever you go, gives you what u desire, what more can you ask for? therefore i decided to give all of me to him in more of him.. im not saying that it is wrong to be in BGR, it is an exp to have, but beware n do not fall to temptation at a young age or even then until ur married.
4) friends
friends are one of d most important things in my life, we cry n laugh to tgt. However, i was a very shy n quiet gal.. so do not really get to relate very well. So I was desperate to have more close frenz, frenz that really love n care for me. i am like the dog in a group-folowing everywhere they go, doing wat i can do juz to be part of them. In church, d leaders thaught me how to reach out to friends n to really love them. i realized that was d right thing to do rahter than following them around. So i went up a whole new level, my heart was actually focusing on caring for them n do wat is possible to reach out to them n to help them. And it worked! i see people treating me much better than before..i no longer felt lonely. i really hope that u will go out n love others too.. u never know if there is a heart crying for help. whatever u sow, u shall reap.
thats all for today!
love,
michelle yan(:
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